You know God gives you life and fills it with hurdles and challenges to overcome. Each time you clear a hurdle you become a stronger person spiritually, emotionally, physically, etc...you have reached a very challenging moment in your life but there is nothing you can't overcome with faith and perseverance not only for yourself but your family. Reefing can wait and will always be a hobby you can return to. Focus on your well being and I am confident a good person like you will be fine. Don't hesitate to reach out to your support group around you. We all wish you the very best....God bless you